RANDALLSTOWN, Md. - With her son about to be a high school senior, Chris Brown should be looking at photos to send to the yearbook staff at Randallstown High School, not laying them out on a coffee table for people stopping in to pay their respects.
"I just know that I will miss Christopher so much, but he is showing me himself. Just when I though that I would not see him again, I am starting to see him in people now and that means the world because now I got a piece everywhere I go."
From the grocery store to the drug store, Brown says people who knew her son are telling her stories.
In the week since he was killed, she is beginning to see her son's reach, his impact on other lives and the man she worked so hard to mold.
Brown is a spiritual woman and is garnering strength from her son's impact.
There is an investigation going on and she does believe Officer James Laboard criminally murdered her son, but now is not about that, she says it is about Christopher.
"I am not angry and I want to make sure that that is clear. I don't feel cheated. I just know that there was a crime committed and I need justice to prevail and it is just that simple. I love that life I just saw."
And she will see much more of it tonight.
Christopher's friends have planned a vigil this evening on the very football field he was working toward his dream as a professional player.
It is not a rally, it is a vigil; one Brown says she will lean on for strength as she prepares to bury her baby boy.
"They don't know how much it is going to take us as a family to get through it and they are going to help us with it. I asked the Lord to show me Christopher a little bit more and he is answering that prayer. I want to be able to be the light and not take away from his purpose. He came in peace and I want him to leave in peace. "
The vigil will take place on the Randallstown High School football field at 7pm Thursday night.
Christopher Brown’s wake is scheduled from 4 to 8pm at the Vaughn Green Funeral Home on Liberty Road Friday evening with the funeral to follow 9am Saturday morning at Colonial Baptist Church, also on Liberty Road.
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